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| as i was lying down
after packing alllll my stuff
i started thinking
will things even be the same when i go back?
people change alot, maybe i have changed and havent noticed
maybe its the anxiety talking
im so excited to go back home
im excited to live with my mom again
and i just have a feeling that i wont have the friends i had before i moved here
i just want everything like it used to be really badly
living here, made me realize just how much i miss my friends
well we leave at 8:30 to get on the road to ohio
crystals wedding is saturday
we are getting shitfaced at the reception, i cant wait
then sunday im moving back
maybe im getting too excited?
i dont want to be let down
that would suck
im an idiot for standing chris up 2 times now - Mood:contemplative
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| IM COMING HOME
IM COMING HOME
IM COMING HOME!!!!
seriously, i am the happiest girl ever right now
im moving back to clarksville
possibly next weekend
my mom said she would come get me this weekend
buuut i have a wedding to go to next weekend in ohio
so klshdshdkfhsdkfs
I realized that my moms right
living here isnt making me grow up any
i still dont have a job, or license
boy toy ROY my moms husband said he is going to pay for me to go to school
and take me to get my license
and after thinking and thinking and thinking
im taking that offer
i was scared of breaking my dads heart
because my mom kept me from him so long
but he says it doesnt hurt his feelings
and that he supports my every decision
and if i want to go home, i should do it
YAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYA
im starting over fresh though
im not going to drink all the time anymore
im going to better myself :]
mainly because im pretty sure im an alcoholic right now lol - Mood:ecstatic
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| I really really realllllly wish i could tye dye, and it look as badass as this!  | |
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| i want to visit clarksville
i miss not having a life WITH MY FRIENDS
now i have no life by myself, and it sucks
if that bitch does anything with my shit
i will take her to court
im not scared
give away my shit, youre going to court
you took my money
you had them extend the child support illegally & didnt use it on me
you kicked me out of your house
you constantly start drama
you try to meddle in my dad and jills life
you still cant face the fact he isnt with you, doesnt love you anymore, and he has me staying with him
stop it, get over yourself
you ruined our relationship, YOU are nothing but a crazy bitch.
woo felt like venting about my mom :] - Mood:content
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| i had lots of jello shots tonight, they were good
then i had shots of rum
maybe i am an alcoholic bahaha
oh well, who cares
i want a job damn it
why doesnt anyone want to hire me
i will do my job
i may not be pretty, but i look 9879347293472 times better than these redneck bitches here
i actually have class, and morals, and TEETH!
I want a job
so i can save up my money
move back to clarksville
and get an apartment wiff my hannah!
that would make my day, week, YEAR!
i miss my best friend so much
AND KYLE IS AMAZING.
Hbmcdowell7 [1:09 A.M.]: lucky! i miss cville :[
Woodyroby [1:09 A.M.]: i wish you were still there b/c i am there alot now
Hbmcdowell7 [1:09 A.M.]: i know right, why did i have to move?
Woodyroby [1:09 A.M.]: idk ask your mommy or daddy
Hbmcdowell7 [1:10 A.M.]: my mom hates me! she is the reason im here
Woodyroby [1:10 A.M.]: ok well then we have came to a conclusion
Hbmcdowell7 [1:10 A.M.]: what might that be?
Woodyroby [1:10 A.M.]: your mommy is the reason you moved
Hbmcdowell7 [1:11 A.M.]: i already knew that lol
Woodyroby [1:11 A.M.]: ha ha then why did you ask..... oh i se you were asking a retorical question
Hbmcdowell7 [1:11 A.M.]: hahaha yeah kyle duhhhh
Woodyroby [1:11 A.M.]: hey its late ..... mam and i am sleepy
Hbmcdowell7 [1:12 A.M.]: okayy, goodnight?
Woodyroby [1:12 A.M.]: ha ha are you going to bed?
Hbmcdowell7 [1:12 A.M.]: i thought you were? lol
Woodyroby [1:12 A.M.]: no way this is the first time i have got to talk to you almost in person in like forever
Hbmcdowell7 [1:12 A.M.]: :]
why do i have to be here, when he is there!?!?
damn. - Mood:content
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| i really really realllllly feel like complete and total shit today
im cramping so bad to where i am shaking
and all i want are some heavy duty pain killers
i took a bath, but didnt really actually take a bath
i just layed in the bathtub, just layed there because the warm water felt so good
i woke up early, and got things done, then BAM here comes my favorite time of month
KILL ME...pretty please
i dont want to do anything but sleep
sorry im complaining.
but thats how i feel today - Mood:sore
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| but i do love getting drunk
and yes im a lightweight
but does that stop me from drinking more?
no way jose
last night me and jill had 2 bacardi mojito wussy drinks, 1 shot of parrot bay, and i had 4 fucking shots of hennessy
lets just say, i was offff my ass
so much that i decided to call my dad at work
now bear in mind he is fucking assistant manager of walmart!
yeah, he laughed his ass off and then said i think you guys have had enough
last night was fun as fuck.
i called kelsey and accidentally woke her up
i called hannah but her stupid phone doesnt have signal in north carolina
the other day i finally got my friend back
after alot of missunderstanding
and alot of memories missed
she imed me and said
"your mom thought you were strung out on crack?!"
bahhahahahah
anywhoo im bored
and wishing kyllle was online
i just found out today
that the wedding im going to in a month
will have 11 or so single marines ;]
in uniform YUMMY!
im glad im legal
who knows what will happen when my drunkass sees some fine ass marines in their dress blues!
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| nobody will bring my happiness down
not even my mother
when will she learn to take the blame for shit?
i admitted majority of the shit i did
and then she just says that im childish?
Okay let me ask you this
by refusing to give your own child HER social security card, dont you think you're the one being childish?
seriouslyyyyyyy
BAHAHA
nothing in my life is fucked up
untill it comes to her
she tends to lower my self esteem
o well.
other people bring it back up<3
it feels great to be drug freeeeeeeee
not alcohol free
but drug free :]
oh yes i forgot to mention,
coyotes are something great to hear every fucking night before trying to go to sleep.
Sikkkkkke
they are trying to get daisy...poor puppy
i think they got her boyfriend last night =[
that little doggy was soo cute
i will miss him - Mood:blah
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| I have just been feeling the need to try to repair old friendships
me and anna are friends
and i apologized to kelsey for the things i said and the things she thought i said but didnt
i bet her little high-ass wont remember in the morning though lol
so i hope we worked things out
next would be kristina, but im pretty sure she doesnt care to be my friend
which i have learned to accept that
basically i love my life
i love my friends
i love my family
i am at a happy point in my life
it could be caused by kyle =]
but who knows
job hunting tomorrow
woot woot
for the what? 3rd fucking time. - Mood:happy
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| is pretty swell
i have the most amazing best friends that anyone could ever ask for
Hannah Claire Stephens
&
Amber nicole Wallace
I love them both dearly
So basically my mom turned into a bitch real quick
i didnt even do anything this time
so hey, whatever, move on with your life
and stop whining to me about everything, because you obviously dont care too much about me
and you know what? i think its fucked up you wont even tell me when youre having youre surgey
who does that to their kids?
need i have to tell you once again this week, nice parenting
Kyle is wonderfull
i wish he lived here, for real
he makes me smile like no other
and he wants to come see me for fall break
im glad i told him my feelings for him =]
and as for the old friends
im better off without them
alot less drama in my life =]
- Mood:mellow
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